I woke up this morning, and I still didn’t have my period, so I went along with the process and got the blood test done locally.

 

Around 1.15pm, I realised what time it was and thought… wow, the morning has flown by, and I have been so busy at work, that I haven’t had a second to think about the results yet.  Of course, from then on, it was the only thing on my mind, and I finally got the call from the nurse at the Clinic at around 4.00pm. 

 

The conversation confirmed what I already knew, but I still didn’t like hearing it.  I didn’t know what to do, or think, or feel, but knowing that I was at work helped me pull it all together a bit.

 

The bottom line is that now I need to decide if I want to start again or not.  I can, and it’s a pretty straightforward process again – wait for my period, ring the Clinic, make an appointment for 21 days later, blood tests, nose spray, head spins, more blood tests, internal scans, injections…. lots and lots and lots of daily injections, and thousands and thousands of dollars. 

 

The nurse suggested I could talk to the counsellor again, but I don’t know if that is going to help me.  I also asked about different processes, was there a shorter cycle, how can I improve my chances if I decide to go through this again?  The nurse suggested I have an appointment with my Fertility Doctor, or maybe even a phone consultation to talk it through with her, but basically it comes down to increasing my dosage of drugs again to try to get more eggs so we can freeze some, and also some sort of new growth hormone that they have started using (which will probably cost me another fortune).

 

I sent a test message to everyone to let them know the news… and then went home for a quiet night of reflection.